I couldn't think, I couldn't even comprehend that he was doing IV drugs again. This was just unbelievable! Then I decided, "I am not going to fall apart". I'm done! I showed him what I found and he did the same thing he always does. Denies it first then when he sees I'm not going to let him get away with the lies he admits it. Then he proceeded to tell me that he left it in his pocket on purpose so I would find out because he didn't want to do it again. I told him that I felt like he was doing this to break me and get me to gain the weight back so that I would be numb and he could do what he wanted but that was not happening. I told him if he decided he was going to use drugs that was his decision but that I was not going to stand by and watch him go down that road again. I was done! I told him I was going to the breakfast meeting that morning and I was staying in San Diego and doing what I came there to do and it was up to him what he was going to do but if it included drugs to stay away from me. He said he didn't have any other drugs and wasn't going to do any. I told him I wasn't making any decisions until I got back home but I assured him drugs weren't in my future. We went to the meeting and attended the convention the next three days. He said he definitely didn't want anything to do with drugs and he was going to stay clean and get help.
When we got home he signed up for a one year Men's Bible Study through our church without me even mentioning it and I was floored! He had never done anything like that before. He went to church, went home, went to small group if I went, but didn't do anything on his own or commit to anything else. So this was amazing that he would make a year long commitment to meet once a week and read several books. I was cautiously optimistic.
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